Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I Wasn't Ready

I wasn't ready for Fiona to be done nursing.  She has decided that she's done though.  She hasn't nursed in 2 days.  I think part of the reason she decided she's done is because my milk supply dropped.  After 2 days of not nursing I'm not engorged at all.  It just makes me sad.

I knew that someday we would be done breastfeeding.  My goal had been to make it to 1 year and then let her decide when to wean.  Well, we are 2 weeks past her first birthday and she's decided she's finished.

I'm just not ready to give up those times during the day that I got to sit and snuggle with her.  She's such a busy girl these days, I really loved when she would ask to nurse and snuggle up with me for a few minutes.  I really didn't think I would be so emotional about Fi weaning.  I guess it is just one more way she is telling me that she isn't so much a baby anymore.

I'm proud that we made it so far.  I'm glad that I was able to give her a year of breastmilk.  I just wasn't ready for it to be over.


Jessie Kaitlin said...

Congrats on making it to a year (and past!!). Sophia has been cutting back as well, and it makes me really sad :(

Slee said...

These little steps forward in their growth and development are the hardest to accept in the beginning, but on the bright side you will be able to stop looking at every shirt and dress in terms of easy access for a while. *hugs*

Regan said...

You'll have another nurser soon enough! :)

Nikki said...

Awww! *hugs*

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Annie said...

Congrats on making it to a year :) So many people don't and it breaks my heart. I feel for you though. It can be hard emotionally to deal with the change. YOu did a great job nursing her for that long - congrats Anna!

Sarah said...

That is one of the hardest milestones to go through! I was sad when mine were finished as well. And for me, Mia was my last---so I'll never do that again :(