Santa Claus

We didn't take Fiona to see Santa last year.  I really wish that we had because it would have been a cute picture.  However, we were sleep deprived parents of a 1 month old who screamed 24/7 and Nathan was worried about germs.  So there was no cute Santa picture.

I was bound and determined we would get a cute Santa picture this year, but I had a sneaking suspicion that Fi would be terrified of the jolly man in red.  We decided to make the trek to the mall in Fort Collins while we were there.  Fiona seemed to be in a decent mood and from far away she seemed to really like Santa.  She kept pointing and waving to him.

This is what happened when we got within about 5 feet of him.

I didn't even attempt to put her on his lap.  She was just absolutely freaking out just being next to him.

So, no cute Santa pictures.  I guess there is always next year.  The trip wasn't a complete waste though.  There was a big Christmas tree in the mall where we stopped to take a couple of pictures.  There were also trains running around the tree that Fiona was fascinated by.

I Wasn't Ready

I wasn't ready for Fiona to be done nursing.  She has decided that she's done though.  She hasn't nursed in 2 days.  I think part of the reason she decided she's done is because my milk supply dropped.  After 2 days of not nursing I'm not engorged at all.  It just makes me sad.

I knew that someday we would be done breastfeeding.  My goal had been to make it to 1 year and then let her decide when to wean.  Well, we are 2 weeks past her first birthday and she's decided she's finished.

I'm just not ready to give up those times during the day that I got to sit and snuggle with her.  She's such a busy girl these days, I really loved when she would ask to nurse and snuggle up with me for a few minutes.  I really didn't think I would be so emotional about Fi weaning.  I guess it is just one more way she is telling me that she isn't so much a baby anymore.

I'm proud that we made it so far.  I'm glad that I was able to give her a year of breastmilk.  I just wasn't ready for it to be over.

I'm Still Here

I'm still alive.  I haven't been online as much these days and I definitely haven't been blogging regularly.  It's been a combination of a computer on the fritz, busy days, and some bloggers block.  So this is what it has looked like out our windows for a week

It's been a bit of a winter wonderland.  Last week we were stuck inside for at least a couple of days.  It was kind of nice, since school was out it was just Fiona and I for 2 days last week and all 3 of us on Wednesday.
It definitely makes it feel a bit more like winter and Christmas.

We've been busy getting in the Christmas spirit lately.  Last Christmas is such a blur to me.  I had a tiny baby who never slept and spent about 23 hours of everyday screaming.  We really didn't have money for gifts last year, because money was extremely tight.  I still remember feeling incredibly blessed that we were all healthy and together and we had this wonderful little miracle (even if she only stopped screaming for an hour a day).

This year things are looking much brighter.  Fiona is a happy little girl, who makes us smile and laugh everyday.  #2 is busy cooking away in there and we can't wait to meet him/her.  I have an incredible husband, who works long and hard to ensure that I get to stay home with Fiona.  We have had a rough year, but we made it through together.  We are all finally healthy.  We have wonderful friends and family.  Nathan worked very hard and got a really big client at work and got a very nice commission check just in time for Christmas.  This year it has felt really good to be able to be generous with gifts to each other and our friends and family.  Money definitely is not the key to happiness, but it definitely helps ease some stress.  We have so much to be thankful for this year.  It has been easy to get into the holiday spirit.

Fiona and I have been listening to lots of Christmas music, decorating the house, and wrapping lots of presents.

We are headed out to Colorado to visit family for the holidays.  We are really looking forward to it.  If I don't blog again before Christmas, I hope everyone has a great Christmas and has lots to be thankful for.

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