I Wasn't Ready

I wasn't ready for Fiona to be done nursing.  She has decided that she's done though.  She hasn't nursed in 2 days.  I think part of the reason she decided she's done is because my milk supply dropped.  After 2 days of not nursing I'm not engorged at all.  It just makes me sad.

I knew that someday we would be done breastfeeding.  My goal had been to make it to 1 year and then let her decide when to wean.  Well, we are 2 weeks past her first birthday and she's decided she's finished.

I'm just not ready to give up those times during the day that I got to sit and snuggle with her.  She's such a busy girl these days, I really loved when she would ask to nurse and snuggle up with me for a few minutes.  I really didn't think I would be so emotional about Fi weaning.  I guess it is just one more way she is telling me that she isn't so much a baby anymore.

I'm proud that we made it so far.  I'm glad that I was able to give her a year of breastmilk.  I just wasn't ready for it to be over.